Peek A Boo

I came around the corner of the old worn out shed yesterday morning with the dog pulling on the leash in one hand and my cane in the other trying to steady myself and dig into the ground so as not to  fall and break a foot like last year! The dog went crazy and started pulling to get around that shed for some reason.  I had to book it to keep up with her, and being early I was not a happy camper about it! As I looked up, there in the hole in the shed..... a momma raccoon was  trying to hoist up her baby raccoon up over the side of the shed. I didn't have my camera with me right then.... I sure wished I did. It was the cutest sight seeing that little baby just wiggling over the side squealing and the momma reaching down from the hole grasping baby tightly. I stood as quietly as I could with the dog in tow....and watched as she pulled that little baby to safety! I proceeded to put my dog into her pen out in the field and then went back to the  house for my camera in hopes that I could catch a glimpse of my new found friends. I stood there in front of the old shed quietly for a few minutes and saw nothing....but then after a little bit out popped this face! Peek A Boo.... I see you! I wonder how many babies are up there? I have a feeling that is where all of Honey's leftover doggie food has been disappearing to .....her dish is always empty in the morning, even if she left some from the day before! That's OK... I really don't mind...I love seeing the different little animals that come around here looking for food. Now I know someone is watching me.....funny I had that feeling the other day when I was out there in the field walking around. My little raccoon friends were spying on me without me noticing! I get a little laugh out of that....thinking of them watching me as I walk the dog around the field. Sometimes I think I forget that God watches me....little old me! He sees all,,,knows all and will make all things right. He  knows everything that happens to me ....even when it feels like I am all alone in it...He sees exactly what is happening and can actually do something about it....My little raccoon friends are peeking at me...just to be curious but even something so simple as this reminds me that God is always watching me.
                                                                                                                                                                                  "For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and His ears are open unto their prayers."~ 1Peter 3:12                   

Unusual Commitment

An unusual commitment is what we have....our marriage. Today marks our eight year anniversary. All together I have been married for twenty-seven years! You say....what? Yep...hate to admit my big faults but I have made many mistakes! So Rocky is husband number three! Our marriage came about as a result of an affair that should not have happened however God has forgiven us and we have to live past our failures and mistakes. We have definitely had our share of consequences due to it I am sure! Our entire marriage of eight years in a nutshell goes something like this....Rocky had a severe traumatic brain injury and was in intensive care for awhile, this was in 2003. He slowly recovered but had some lasting problems but was able to go back to doing some construction repair work. In 2005, he fell from a metal roof and had a second brain injury which was more severe. This time landed him in a hospital for three months. Since then he has had pneumonia several times, gallbladder surgery, stomach tumor, colon cancer, and is currently on about thirteen prescriptions. So you can see our marriage is not really normal as most would see it. I have many of my own problems to deal with as well. In between all of this we separated for about a year due to something else that came out that totally shocked me to death and I needed time away in order to heal and forgive. We do have a strange marriage.....not always what you would call "happily married" however the grace of God has been there for the both of us. Although we bicker and get at each other we do have a commitment to each other that goes deeper than most. I say if this marriage can survive, any can! It isn't always about being happy...it is about commitment, forgiveness, grace,and mercy. I have had  to do a lot of forgiving in my lifetime. It isn't always easy.  Anger is a big issue and until you deal with that...well it is difficult to forgive. I have had to show grace to someone who has betrayed me on the deepest level. It is hard! Only through praying each day can I make it. God helps me stay committed when I don't want to. So today I am "airing my dirty laundry" so to speak; I hope for the purpose of helping someone else. If you are in an affair....end it. It will bring some heavy consequences. If you are married, but unhappy,...well remember your vows and try to think of what attracted you in the first place to that person. Divorce is no answer....I should know...been there done that.  Anyway... an unusual commitment is what I have...in spite of all of my complaining sometimes and my frustrations with the way things are. I still have survived eight years of marriage and that is something to celebrate.

Fix It Or Get Rid Of It!

I absolutely hate when things do not get finished....like a half mowed lawn...a half fixed house... a half painted wall...whatever it may be.  Looking at things that are broken down is something else that is a pain....this week  all at one time I realized a coffee pot broke, light fixture wouldn't work, washer and dryer broke down...then to top it off...the belt on my lawn mower snapped yesterday so that is now sitting. There are too many projects unfinished and way too many things broken down! I say if it's broken let's either fix it or get rid of it like NOW! I hate looking at broken down things. I have many projects that I am working on.... I need to know that I am making progress and am going to finish! I hate to procrastinate. I think I need to do a checkup and see what needs to get fixed and what needs to get pitched! There are plenty of things in my house in this category but there are probably a lot more things in my life as well....so I say....let the housecleaning begin. Fix  it or get rid of it!