Beside The Still Water

Beside the still water I feel Him near. I hear the sound of His voice, saying,"Do not fear". My sins of the past He'll remember no more. His loving arms will embrace me at Heaven's door.

My tears and my heartache, He will erase. It will seem like they never existed when I see His face.
Here, beside the still water, I will wait; until that day when I walk through the gate.

Time Heals

I just realized it has been a very long time since I wrote anything. Another new year is here already? This past year has been a very busy one for me with many visits to the doctors to manage my Sarcoidosis. In May I began being treated with Methotrexate. I had read articles verifying that it could help in the management of Sarcoidosis and since Prednisone did not help me,and
my symptoms were continuing to worsen, I decided to give it a try in spite of the dreadful side effects. I knew I would probably lose my hair so even before it began to fall out I ordered a few wigs and began wearing bandannas. I was at a pain level of 9 or 10 every single day and coughing constantly. Something had to be done...so out of desperation,I began. I have to admit that after reading about all of the serious potential side effects I did have some reservations and was a little bit nervous about taking it. The first few months were the most difficult to get past as every Tuesday night I would take the pills and then every Wednesday and Thursday would feel as if I had a bad hangover or the flu. I continued to cough and have terrible bone pain and strange rashes from the Sarcoidosis and was doubtful if this treatment would ever work for me. In December I thought I may have to quit taking it since my liver enzymes were too high and my kidneys were showing signs of insufficiency. I have now been taking Methotrexate for seven months, I no longer have such severe bone pain, coughing, rashes and overall my level of pain is down to a 3! The side effects are not as severe as the first few months. I am hoping that I can continue on this treatment since it does seem to be finally helping me. If you can just be a little tolerant and patient then sometimes time heals.
This past year has truly been a tough year for many people both physically and emotionally and I am sure some feel it will never get any better. Just be a little tolerant and patient....time heals.
~Isaiah41:10 "Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed;for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

This Is The Day

Okay, some of you may be wondering where in the world I disappeared to.... no I haven't kicked the bucket  yet! I have just been taking a little break from writing.. at least on my blogs. I have lots of projects I am working on in notebooks but too many unfinished. I have also been battling this dragon..."Sarcoidosis" which seems to have gotten worse over the last few months. I am now on Methotrexate once a week  to help with the overall symptoms but there really is no cure for this monster of a disease. I have done much thinking and have come to the conclusion that each day is a special gift. I am thankful for each new day that I see the sun rise. I have made it my goal to try and do at least one thing every day that makes me happy and one thing every day that makes someone else happy. Life is too short to do anything less. Since I have implemented this I noticed I am enjoying each day and appreciating everything around me.
~"This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it."